Nothing can be done against the truth
no matter how we remain in denial.
Wasting time
replacing time
With each empty excuse
but that’ll only work a little while.
Coping with despair
knowing you’re not there
Ashamed to just admit
I’ve been a fool.
So I blame it on the sun
Run away from everyone
Hoping to escape this ridicule .
Trapped in misery
Wrapped so miserably
In this deception that I’ve been wearin’ it like a skin.
Dying to maintain
Oh I keep trying to explain
A heart that never loved me to begin.
Oh I’m such a mess
I have no choice but to confess
That I’ve been desperately trying to belong.
Lying to myself
and everybody else
Refusing to admit my right was wrong.
How beautiful is fruit still in denial of its roots?
My guilty heart behaved so foolishly
This treason from within
That reasons with my sin
Won’t be happy til it sees the death of me.
Selfishly addicted
to a life that I depicted
Conflicted cuz it’s not reality.
Oh what’s left of me
I beg you desperately
Cause me to agree to what I know is best for me
Please save me from myself
I need you to save me from myself
please save me from myself so that I can heal.
The choices that I’ve made
have been nothing but mistakes
What a wasted use of space
Should I die before I wake?
In all of my religion
I’ve fortified this prison
Obligated to obey
To the demands of a bad decision
Please save me from myself so that I can heal.
And then he came.
Selah
“Selah”. By Lauryn Hill. To You. From Me.
It was fun.
