The song “Sea of Love” by Cat Power reminds me of one person and one person only. And no, it’s not Ellen Page… and had this been a different situation I so would have wished it was. But I’ll live if it’s not her, because I do, in fact, have someone better. Someone who said “I love you” about a year ago. The only person I ever loved. A person I can say IS my soul mate… and not just because a psychic said so. This blog goes out to you.
It shouldn’t be a surprise that I remember how I felt when I first laid my eyes upon you. I wouldn’t say it was love at first sight nor would I entirely say otherwise. I just felt this attraction. An attraction I never felt before. and it wasn’t just because I thought you were the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. It’ll be something I’ll never be able to truly explain. But even after everything that happened to us, everything that we put each other through, I’m glad I felt it. This whole story was a bunch of tests and obstacles that were given to us, and even though we both failed a few, that didn’t stop us from finding each other to make what we are today.
At one point I lost you. and it was because of you. That was a time in my life where I, internally, fell into a coma. And someone else took control. Someone who did stupid things and took in a stupid person just to escape the pain, the sorrow, and the shame. I wanted to fight the whole world. I wanted to be the only one left on this planet. I wanted to never wake up. That’s how stupid I became. A whole future I had planned fell apart right in front of me. I felt utterly alone. But not once did I stop loving you. Not once did I go a day without thinking about you. And wishing that one day you’d come back… even though I hated you…. and you did. I escaped the hell I was in for 5 months and I was back into your life. And I found out that you felt the same way about me the whole time. You never stopped loving me. And you regret losing me. And after 5 months we were back together. More in-love than ever. A lot of people would never believe this but they don’t see whats out there. They don’t see the possibilities. After everything I now know anything is possible.
Long story short: I’m in love with you. You’re the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I go to sleep. And everyday I go without touching you I miss you more and more. BUT… one day, very soon, 3 months soon (hopefully), we’re going to be together. And you actually making plans with me has proven nothing but the fact the you really do love me back.
After everything, I’ve learned that dreams won’t work without action. Nobody can stop us but us. And love IS stronger than hate. Love like this doesn’t come around often. You are my rock. and I won’t make it far without you.
I love you, Ozzie Otero. And there’s not a damn thing anyone can do to change that.
Now… let’s go on with our adventure.
