August 2011
1 post
September 2010
1 post
The song “Sea of Love” by Cat Power reminds me of one person and one person only. And no, it’s not Ellen Page… and had this been a different situation I so would have wished it was. But I’ll live if it’s not her, because I do, in fact, have someone better. Someone who said “I love you” about a year ago. The only person I ever loved. A person I can...
February 2010
1 post
Levis Pioneer Poem
I am the new American Pioneer, Looking forward, never back. No longer content to wait for better times… I will work for better times ‘cus no one built the country in suits. All I need is all I got. Bruises Heal. Stink is good. And apathy is death. So I strike up for the new world! A newer, mightier world. The one I will make to my liking. For after the darkness comes the dawn. There is...
January 2010
1 post
“Nothing can be done against the truth
no matter how we remain in denial....”
– “Selah”. By Lauryn Hill. To You. From Me.
It was fun.
December 2009
1 post
It's been 3 months and this is what I've learned
Love is…
…That look they give you when you’re waiting at the bus stop
…When your lover farts in bed and you both giggle
…Overrated when you don’t have it and underrated when you do
…RAD
…A battlefield
…Like water, it gets you all wet
…When you feel physically sick to your stomach when you have to break up but you do it anyway because it’s the right...
November 2009
1 post
I always have and always will hate this part the...
I have no idea what’s wrong with me, why I feel like this after we go our separate ways. Just being with you makes it feel like everything is okay. Like all the worries that would normally have me stressed or annoyed just don’t matter anymore. Though we argue at times, being with you, nothing else matters as much as it does. That’s how happy I am to have you.
I just hate when...
October 2009
2 posts
It's a funny little thing
When people assume you’re stupid enough to watch the lies fly right into your face. When people think you won’t catch on quick enough or at all. I’ve seen some crazy shit in my life. Things most would think are unbelievable. But when I’m told one thing when there’s tons of evidence of another, I’m going to be very quick to judge.
Now, I’m not talking...
Hours fly by
Is there a way I can add more hours to the typical day? Because I don’t seem to have the time to do anything anymore. And when I do, I’m too lazy to do any of it. haha. Shiit. But I like it tho. It makes time go by faster. And right now my life is too much of a routine to just have it go on like this for the rest of my life. Or at least for the rest of the semester. Which ever ends...
September 2009
10 posts
"haha Carlos, That's HELLA random"
Okay so honestly, if it’s too random for you, I’ll make you a planner that has what I’ll ever say and when I’ll say it including date and time. Maybe even what I’m wearing since I’ve been told I should plan THAT out more.
People are so stupid. haha.
Obama: "It's going to get worse before it gets...
It still needs to do that first part.
When Obama was elected I honestly didn’t give a shit…. especially with the fact he was HALF African American. Please…. I’m MORE black than that. Besides, I wasn’t old enough to vote yet, and to tell you the truth I don’t think I’ll ever vote. Not because I’m lazy but because my vote won’t matter. But...
Law Of Attraction
It won’t matter how much money one has because it will never be enough.
Dancing with coconuts
My dreams say a whole lot about what/how a feel about something or if something were to happen. A dream I had recently involved my partner leaving me. Right after that, my TV wouldn’t work, my cell phone didn’t have signal anywhere, and things were just not functioning properly. Indicating my world could not go on if such an event were to occur. I pay attention to my dreams.
But this...
I've seen it's true face.
I had to steal a journal today, while I was at it had to steal a card for him haha but that’s another story (although I stupidly forgot the motherfucking envelope). Anyways, the only reason why I stole it was due to my lack of cash. I know I had about a ten to spare but it would have been in my wallet which I forgot at the apartment. And I was not about to go back up that hill then come back down...
“No one laughs at God in a Hospital.
No one laughs at God in a Ward.
No one’s...”
– I fell In-Love with Regina Spektor tonight.
Heaven Only Knows
Albert Einstein lied. This is regarding one of his infamous quotes. I forgot how it goes word for word since at the time I first saw it I was very young and didn’t really care about what it meant. I eventually understood it. He was talking about time, and how instances vary depending on what you’re doing and how you feel about that task. How if you were to walk across burning stones barefoot every...
Treat Others the Way You Want to be Treated
They say that is the only way to be truly happy. But what if the only thing that makes me happy is the opposite? The only true thing I laugh at is when I insult someone’s intelligence due to an idiotic question or phrase they stated. How am I supposed to just stop doing what I do just so Karma can give me a better life? I cannot. I developed this defense mechanism for a purpose and I can’t just...
Gone Fishin'
When they say things couldn’t get any worse, they lie. Wait a few more days and for a few more issues to surface before you have to resort to something that basically screams that you’re desperate. But today was the last straw. The City eats not only you but your wallet, especially when you don’t have a job. And I would love nothing more than to work in the city since that IS where I...
The universe doesn't make mistakes
Atleast that’s what my acting professor said. She says a lot of things. I want, so badly, to believe her. But certain things just aren’t there for me. She says that all people get this “feeling” inside when they hear a certain song, or smell a certain smell, or see a certain thing. Something that brings up memories that makes the person “feel” good. She helped...
August 2009
14 posts
Ever Downward
School started two weeks ago. The first week was the longest week of my life. Going to school in a completely different environment compared to high school. 5 classes. Scattered all over the week. Dropped one of them. Added another which was one more credit AND an extra three hours in a lab. I wouldn’t call myself an over-achiever because I’m really not. I’ve always been a hard...
Ungratefulness
It makes me a little sick. People have it so good. So much more better than me. And they still want more. Now, I’m in no critical condition to say that I have it the worst. I really don’t. But I am struggling here. Struggling along with a very large majority of the human population. I’ve been trying to look on the brightside for months. Not just for me, but for others, for...
"Lol" is getting sooo annoying
“Aye, how’s the wather in Hercules?”
“Sunny. lol”
“…..?”
Someone’s gonna get their ass beat if they say it one more time at the most unnecessary moment. I mean, atleast say “LAWL”. That shit is hella funny. LAWL.
I want my L.A. weekend to come already!
If cupid's got a gun...
….then he’s shootin’.
I love you.
The next book of my life
It was such a big change that I couldn’t even say it was the next chapter of my life, but it is the next book continuing my life. In one weekend I moved to a major city, began to love someone, and started college where I know absolutley no one except a small handful. All while being jobless for the first time in over two years. But that’s okay, life is all about change. That’s...
Moving Forward
Life isn’t about going back, it’s about going forward. Yes, there are times in our life that we wish we could re-live but if we already lived them perfectly, why live them again? The adventure of life is that there is always something new; new challenges, new experience. A fun game is a game that gets harder as it goes, so it is with life.
Dr. Suess once said
“Cry because it’s over, Smile because it happened.”
And that’s all I’ve been doing.
Bestseller
Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called it “Chops” because that was the name of his dog And that’s what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year that Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And...
"..and once again, San Francisco is the smuggiest...
And I am safe to say that anyone within a 50 mile radius to this city who has some sort of connection to the area will agree. We are smug. And we are proud. Everyone loves it here, and I’m not saying that because I’m full of myself (trust me, I have plenty of other things to say in reference to that).
Our city has survived two major earthquakes, has the second highest minimum wage in...
Until they bleed
I never knew how much I wanted someone right there next to me until they told me how much they wanted me right there next to them.
I don’t have to be psychic to know this WILL go far.
I don’t need to be naturally optimistic to know this WILL make me happy
I don’t need to pay attention to the distance to know we WILL be together for a long time.
I’m looking forward to...
Cocain Cowboys
I heard Travis Barker has so many tattoos because he’s addicted to needles apparently due his herion addiction. I’m not sure if this is true, but then again it doesn’t matter to me. In a way I wouldn’t doubt it if it WAS true. I just got a third tattoo and I already want another one. I’m not the kind of person who gets tattoos JUST for the sole purpose of showing them...
Smoking near plants
My back yard is home to a variety of different shrubs. One in particular has two bushes thoughout my yard. It contains pink flowers with very green leaves. One bush is at one end of my backyard where it obtains enough water and sun to live, the other is right outside one of my bedroom windows; the window I smoke marijuana out of. And although it gets the same amount of water and almost the same...
Lawnmowers
They’re loud. They’re annoying. Mostly occupied my Hispanics.
But without them we’d be living in jungles.
..and then my heart thawed
I never liked getting close to people in a romantic manner. Instances in the past have caused me to cease wanting any involvment in another human being in a way where I am supposed to see myself with them many years from the current date. At one point I just gave up and decided to flow with time until I was to eventually wither away; in that case I was just going to have to see if someone special...
July 2009
1 post
Lalalalaaaaa
I don’t get how any of this works.
Chances are I’m not gonna log on this for another two weeks right before college starts, and probably won’t log on for months after that. But that’s okay.